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[03 Aug 2009|12:49pm] |
i utterly believe that there is an end to everything. especially an end to happiness.
i used to always say "forever and always." i will remember forever and always. i will love forever and always. i don't believe in forever, nor always anymore.
i've lost faith in practically everything i had held close to me. in the idea of love, happiness, most of all, in people. i'm losing so much. and letting it go. i have no reason to hold on to anyone or anything anymore.
( but why does my past always come back to haunt me? )
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| DEAR SELF: |
[09 Oct 2006|10:00pm] |
admit it baby, he took advantage of you and your pathetic emotions once again. how does it feel? to feel used, to feel practically worthless? to know that he led you on, knowingly, happily, because he knew exactly that you wouldn't be able to say no and resist.
just realize, it's been over a year since you've known him and what good has it done for you? except for the nights you spent sobbing to yourself because he treated you like shit or the realization that you've wasted so much of your precious time worrying about what you wanted him to think or what you wanted him to feel.
fortunately, there's no feelings attached for you darling. i'm proud to say that there probably weren't any feelings. he knew what he could get from you and you fell into the trap like a mouse craving cheese. oh that supple cheese, that makes your mouth water.
no harm from all of this, self. just promise me that you'll never fall for it again. unless you enjoy the heartaches and the empty feelings and the powerlessness that endures during these times. if that's your bag, go for it.
but if you want to move on like a strong woman who KNOWS that life isn't meant to feel this way, then do it. anyway, mr. right is out there somewhere, you just gotta keep your chin up and wait.
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[09 Sep 2006|11:30am] |
There's too many amazing people in life to let ONE person get you down.
My new interest is motivational speaking. No really, I can change lives...
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| new journal. |
[12 Aug 2006|10:12pm] |
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comment if you want in. otherwise, oh well.
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[02 Aug 2006|10:15pm] |
say aloha ^_^.
i'll be back in a week.
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[03 Jul 2006|12:18am] |
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cheer up.
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| silhouette; |
[07 Nov 2004|10:01pm] |
friends only bitches. comment and all that junk.
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